Thursday, October 11, 2012

How could I forget?

In the morning I wake up to my blasting alarm.  I crawl out of bed and move on to the bathroom where I wash my face.  A new day has begun.  I look in the mirror and a sad, tired face looks back at me.  Slightly different than it was a year and a half ago.  In this past year, I’ve changed quite a lot.  For the better, I’d say, for the most part.  I begin my day, I get dressed… its cold out, and I don’t need to impress anyone at the university.  I put on a big yellow sweater with my name on the sleeve.  I say “santé” to the rooster and lion printed on the front, each holding a beer.  “Tous les enfants de ma cite et meme d’ailleurs” is printed on the back under “Rotary Youth Exchange 2011-2012”.  I think of all of my friends with the same sweater who are all over the world.  Some are lucky enough to still be in Belgium.  Others in Peru, California, Florida, Mexico, New York, Argentina, New Zealand, India, Japan, Finland, Australia, South Africa, Brazil, Austria, Colombia… the list goes on.  I struggle into my jeans, as I have refused to accept the 20 pounds I gained.  I put some makeup on my pale face that didn’t see much sun under grey Belgian skies, and then I make my way to the kitchen to settle my growling stomach.  I try to stay away from the nutella I used to eat every morning, but something tastier than a little margarine has to go on my English muffins.  I put my books in my bag, which is so “a la mode” in Europe.  For the longest time I wanted one, because it was like the bags all my girlfriends had.  Just in case of rain, I stick my umbrella in it too.  I didn’t even have it until a few months ago… my first time in Paris it was pretty rainy, so I was forced to buy a cheap umbrella there.  I put on my shoes, which I happened to buy in Spain.  I bought them in a little mall outside of our hotel in Madrid.  I liked the black ones, and a friend from New York bought the same in navy blue.  They were very much needed.  The original colours of the converse I had before became indistinguishable from all the mud and beer from the “ducasses”.  Before I leave, I put on a hat.  I decide between the one from Peru that was such a nice gift, and the one I bought in Brussels, convinced of its awesomeness by my best Arizonian friend.  I unlock the door to leave my house, remembering where that keychain came from.  It’s a little green lizard bottle opener I got in Bruges when I was there for a weekend in May. 

I rush to the bus stop, listening to music on the way.  I might listen to some French music, but probably house or electronic, most of which I was introduced to during the past year.  I get on the bus, and swipe my bus pass, considering the differences between Transit Windsor and TEC.  I smile to myself as I remember all the times I got away with cheating to get on the bus by flashing a bus pass that had been expired for 3 months. 

I get to the university and sit in Spanish class.  I wouldn’t even be taking this class and learning this language if some of my best friends weren’t Spanish speaking.  I want to travel more in the future, visit my friends, and experience their culture and language.  So I’m learning Spanish.  It’s so much easier now that I speak French.  Ah merde ! J’ai fait une erreur devant tout la classe… ah oops.  I totally just started thinking in French again.  Move on to my next lecture… finally something that doesn’t remind me of Belgium!! Oh wait, my professor just mentioned a French philosopher… so of course I think of my religion class back au college a Chimay.

 By the time this lecture is done, it’s about time for lunch, so I head over to a café on campus.  I order a tea and a Panini.  Not too expensive – I have enough change for that.  I pull out my change purse, and have to smile.  Its big yellow button eyes look up at me as I unzip its red mouth and take out some money, dollars and quarters still looking weird… 25 cent pieces don’t even exist “where I’m from”.  The change purse is very important to me, so I take care to make sure it doesn’t get crushed by books in my bag.  It was generously given to me by a friend I made on a school trip to Normandy near the end of the school year. 

I eat alone.  It’s so hard to make friends at university.  It was so much easier in Belgium.  I was an exchange student.  I was interesting.  People wanted to be my friend.  But Belgians are friendlier anyway.  To be honest, I barely even mind that I don’t have many friends here.  But then again, sometimes it would be nice to let loose and go to a party now and then.  “I don’t have time,” I tell myself. “I have to focus on my school work.”  

When I arrive back at my house, I check the mail, hoping something came for me from a faraway place… but no such luck today.  Just some ads and a bill addressed to my mother.  I get into the house.  Off with the Spanish kicks and on with the slippers, shaped like clogs, from Amsterdam.  That brings back fond memories of my Iowan friend, who invited me to Amsterdam with her and her host family.  I relax for just a moment before starting on my tedious homework.  I never had to do homework all last year.  I put my face in my hands … and I see on my wrist a bracelet of black, yellow, and red thread.  One of my best friends hand made that for me.  I’m not allowed to take it off until I go visit him in Peru.  I go the fridge to look for a little snack before starting my homework.  I see on it the postcards I brought back from Barcelona, Paris, Bruges, and Chimay…  But most importantly, a couple magnets, given to me by yet another one of my best friends.  He’s such a sweetheart.  Not finding anything I want in the fridge, I make my way to my room to work on my homework.  On the bulletin board above my workspace, many pictures are pinned: my class, my best friends, my favourite pictures, a postcard featuring Carnaval at Binche.  Every time I look up from my work, they’re all smiling at me.  I just wish I could be there again.

I study until the evening, when I shower.  I get my towel off a hook behind my door.  I see on the hook next to it and apron given to me by my second host family.  It has a little rooster on it and says “Erpion”.  After my shower, I watch a little TV with my mom.  That’s one thing I didn’t do much of in Belgium – watch television.  I always had better things to do.  I have to get up very early again tomorrow, so I go to bed.  Before dozing off to sleep, I look around my room.  I look at the pictures on my walls, the flag hanging, and I cuddle with a sweater of a boy I had loved.  I try to think positively and look forward to next summer, when I plan on going back, but for now it just seems so far away.  Three months have passed already.  Better than most, I know how time can just fly by.  Three months have passed, so only 9 months left, until I can be home again. 

No comments:

Post a Comment